It's 2am right now (31 May 2026). I just wanted to say something before I went to bed. I had a lot of fun with the Muslim homies today. I felt weird at the end of it though. My social battery was definitely drained, but something I thought I grew out of kept happening - I overthought every single thing that I did. I felt so self-conscious. It felt like I was a high schooler again with no idea of what it actually meant to be a friend.
I never did that with my batchamtes or my classmates. I don't know what got into me today, but I hope I work through it. I don't want to do the whole masking thing again. I feel like I'll have a better perspective once I wake up.
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